meh
I have noticed that being in the PCC library makes me very tired. I can't remember if other libraries make me feel this way as well, but I think I'd be interested in experimenting with working in other libraries to see if they make me feel the same way.
My theory is that the lights make me tired. The LED lights. At least I think that's what they are. Whatever they are, they make me tired. It might also have to do with the quiet atmosphere...maybe all the books?
There's that one weird phenomenon about people feeling like they have to shit themselves in bookstores or something, right? It's kinda funny tbh, but yeah...perhaps a similar effect happens but instead of uhh shitting I just get sleepy. LOL.
Being forced to reflect on my day and record my thoughts has been a tiny bit of a challenge, but one that I very much welcome. I worry about my brain turning to mush, so I'd like to work it to its full potential. I love my brain and I just want it to be healthy.
I feel bad that I'm always so stressed (ALWAYS) because I know that isn't good for my entire body. I genuinely don't know what to do though. Every time I try to get better sleep, it doesn't last very long. I know it has something to do with my circadian rhythm, but that still doesn't make me feel any better. I do feel a bit more energetic in the evening, but even then, I'm just tired.
I know for a fact I'm burnt out, but... is it supposed to last this long? It feels like I've been burnt out for so long now.