my back hurts
Okay... well. I'd really like to record my thoughts every day. I'm gonna try. So here is where I'm at right now: I don't know if I can keep doing what I'm doing. If I can keep going on the way I have been. I don't think I'm fulfilling enough with the pace that I'm at.
I want to become a better writer and the best way to do that is to...do it, right? I also need to read more books. There's a book I want to read and it's even free on the internet archive, I just need to actually do it.
I'm sick of using my phone and I'm sick of social media. I'm sick of being constantly monitored by these billionaire corporations. I want to be able to speak without it turning into an ad that gets shoved in my face. I hate ads! I hate them. If I could I would make it so that I never have to see one ever again.
Do you think I can actually do this? I think that I just have to really try and maybe I can do it.
The pressure of posting something for someone to see is too suffocating, and I think something like this might ease that burden a little. I dunno.
I'm trying really hard to figure things out. I'm trying... I really am. Even if I tell myself I'm not doing enough, I know that isn't true. Well, to an extent, I guess.
I'm always going to tell myself I'm not doing enough. We all know where that came from. No need to dive into that right now.
So, if I'm always going to feel that way, what do I do? No matter what, I'm going to feel like I'm not enough, so I have to actively combat that somehow. I guess that's what I'm trying to work on.